7.01.2012

Did I Date the Same Guy Twice?

You came along unexpectedly.  I knew you were an alright guy already, so I added you on Facebook. After a while, we started talking through Facebook, but then got to talking a lot over text and on the phone, and we both admitted that it was great talking to each other.
You usually woke up before me because of work; I loved waking up in the morning and seeing that I already had a sweet message from you to read before I went to class.

Then we went on our first date and it was such a nice night. I thought about you constantly after that, and when you asked me to be your girlfriend, I happily said yes.

Things were fantastic after that. You were that most amazing guy I’ve ever known and treated me so well. I was so happy to have someone like you in my life.

But then things started getting busy with work.  And the fact that you had to move out and look for your own apartment didn’t help either.  But the work thing was killing you. It made it so that sweet, amazing guy I once knew wasn’t really there anymore. When I hung out with you or talked to you, it’s like I was with a completely different person.  You were so unhappy, tired, and stressed, and I hated seeing you like that, because I really did care about you.  I know I told you that I would never penalize you for doing your job, but when you started treating me differently because of it, I couldn’t be happy like that.  And you saw that. So you texted me one day, saying that you couldn’t do it anymore and that the whole situation was unfair to me, because you wanted to give me more of your time, but you couldn’t. So you said that it would be best for me if we took a break. Of course I cried after receiving this text, but you insisted that when things settled down with you, we would come back to it… And now here I am.

This paragraph is written toward two completely different guys.  I had two guys who don’t even know each other do the same exact thing to me within 5 months of each other.  And I handled both situations differently, but still ended up in the same spot.  And guys wonder why us girls think all guys are the same? 

And this is why I have lost all trust in people, especially the entire male species, and also, my hope that true love really exists is pretty close to dead.